Hi guys,
So, another birthday has come and gone and I turned 40 years old. 40. That is basically middle age! I'm processing what this means. I don't feel different than I did when I was 30, although I do feel different than when I was 20. Well that's not completely true. At 30 I didn't have gray hairs, some wrinkles, or extra weight around my middle. Those things are telling me that I am 40 for sure. But my mind and my energy level and my outlook on life feels the same.
I asked Lulu if she thought 40 seemed old. She said, "It's not that old Mom," and I thought, that's because it ISN'T that old for a Mom. I've always been old to her, ha ha. I remember when my Mom turned 40 it didn't seem like she was really old. I was already in high school and growing up myself so it was only right for her to be a normal Mom age. It has been interesting to grow up and look back at the years when my Mom was this age. She must have felt like I do now; some days feeling like you're still a young mom figuring it out as you go and other days feeling like you're a seasoned pro. My mom was young when she raised her family in foreign countries! I had complete faith in her ability to keep us safe, the same way my kids must think about me. Our home is a haven, a place to feel safe and loved and to feel the Spirit. It's a place to plan for our next adventure and to reminisce on the funny and amazing things that we've already been through! It's a place to try new things and learn to be brave.
It's also kind of strange to turn 40 because it honestly doesn't feel like THAT long ago that Dad and I got married. I guess what this means is that life is good and comfortable, causing the days to quietly blend into one another. That makes me happy to realize that, but I also don't want to lose any opportunities that are here right now! I only have a few years left with you guys! Have I done my best to teach you what is most important? Have I done the experiences with you that will enrich your life and bring you happy memories? I try to be intentional in my parenting, but there's always room for improvement. What's left for Lulu to learn before she's on her own in 4 years? It's time to write it down and get serious about it! A few things to start my list 1- budget and balance money, 2- how to make deposits and withdrawals, 3- how to apply for a job, 4 -manage your time and classes by yourself, 5-cook meals completely on your own, 6-gain your own testimony. That's a pretty good list, right?
My birthday was on a Sunday and I just wanted to eat yummy food and explore somewhere new with you guys. Check and check! I also got some fun gifts that Dad was proud of. He knows that I like surprises and he did a good job.
Dad made me smoked pork and we had pie for dessert.
And to explore we went out in West Farmington, where it's desolate and quiet and pretty empty:
Thanks for wanting to do things with me and for showing me love all the time. I am a lucky lady.
Love,
Mom



































































